' Why do i have to be so SAD '

that is becouse i love you...

becouse i love you that why i be so sad...

today is second day we argue...

today whole day,my handphone didn appear his call or sms...

we agree to gift each other some silent moment...

again i feel dissapointed....

becouse someone who done wrong thing,

he didn mean to tam fan me....

it make me feel sad...

maybe i realy nothing for him...

maybe i dont have to be so sad...

since i control my emotion for few days...

i think continue after the few days,

i still can stand for it...

i will make myself become more brave n happy..

i dont wish my parents worry about me...

i still have my life to continue...

somemore i know he wont becouse of me,

gift up his entertain...

even argue with me he still will go out with friends...

so..maybe i should like him...

maybe after more few days,

i will back to my study life...

i have to prepare for it...

this time i will study hard...

i dont wish to let my parents dissapointed again...

this is my last chance...

i will appreciate...thank you GOD...

thank you to let me sad to make me become brave...

i should learn from this by now...

i should protect myself from the beginning...

maybe now wont so hurt...>.<

i hate myself...

i am a useless girlfriend...

today is my second time get hurt...

this time i dont think this is small matter...

it realy sad and hurt...

i dont know should i forgive u ornot...

why keep hurt me??

why keep lie to me??

why one time yao one time gam hurt me??

am i good to buli??

izit my love is not deserve for you??

or you think we been together more than one year,

so i will never break with u then u keep hurt me??

i have gift many chance to you,

but why dont appreciate it??

do you still want this relationship??

do you still want be together wif me??

do you still respect me n this relationship??

you have no responsibility on this relationship...

you dont appreciate my love,my chance,my trust...

what u have done to me??

is hurt...

dont you think about my feeling when u lie to me??

dont you think about my feeling when you close with other girls???

dont you think about my feeling when you have fun???

all this thing i have never think...

you always after do something only regret...

you always say you are not purpose to do that...

but you still do it...

dont you think what u have do will hurt me??

if dont want to hurt me then dont do that la...

i have been together with u more than one year...

you stil dont know what i dont like,what i like??

you always said that i am the most important for you,

but u never prove it...

and i dont think so...why??

becouse i think ur entertain is important than me...

you can lie to me becouse u go pub...

you can lie to me becouse of ur friends...

then where am i??

i think i am the last and less important for you...

why i always dont trust you??

try to think about it??

from the begining i trust u much...

but why dont??

becouse you lie to me...you use my trust lie to me...

then how am i goin to trust u again??

you know i hate people lie to me,but you stil lie to me..

what that mean??it mean you dont care my feeling...

but you since like dont think that you are wrong...

you stil loud to me...

and find reason to cover your wrong...

what kind of this people??

how am i goin together with you??

when you close with other girl have you think about me??

did i do this to you??

even in pub,i also didt do this to you...

but why must be like this??

you are the one who not respect this relationship...

i though i finaly found a guy who realy treat me well...

and we can have a long relationship...

but you make me dissapointed...

i though you are different,but

you have no different with other guys...

you aready not that guy that i know when begining...

or maybe i not worth that u love me...

finaly my result come out la...
hehe...
this time i pass my paper aready...
i can go back kampar continue my study life lu...
that was another new begining for me...
i will try my best to study this time...
becouse i aready waste one year...
if not, now i aready study year two la...
aready 20 year old but just start diploma year one...
i will work hard for it...
lucky mostly my friends who study diploma they oso can proceed to year two...
that was a two good news for me on this year...
firstly, i have to say thank you to my dear...
becouse in this year he is the one who support me...
he beside me when the time i was sad n dissapointed...
until today he stil was beside me...
that day after check my result,he also very 'gan jiong'...
thank you for support me all the time...
before my result, another person very gan jiong that is my sister...
she keep sms me ask me,did i check my result..
haha...one day got three sms..
thank you for so sayang me...^^
thank you for everyone who support me...
i hope i dont make them dissapointed again...
hehe...
thank you...
hmm...sometime realy dont know why a guy must everyday hang out
with friends??izit one day stay at home is a hard thing??
everytime tell him about this...dun knw why i realy dont like he always go out..
his mum also want him stay at home more...
i aready tell him that why the reason his mum say like that...
but why cannot listen and remember it??
hard to do thid thing??
until now also dont know what im angry???
did he remember what i have say to him??
why he dont understand my meaning??
why every time when i want to treat him good,then he will 'foong xi' le???
why want to make me angry??
sigh...hate this feel...
why until now he stil cannot understand what im thinking??
he tell me he will change,but why always jz 3min only??
why cannot be longer???what he have prove to me???
haiz...dont know what should i do...
who can teach me???

' life is hard '

agree this words??

emm...i agree...

when we were old that time,i think when think back de old memory

there sure alot of thing happen in our life...

our life is full of,

challenge...

lurch...

dissapointed...

regret...

happiness...

sadness...

and so...

when a person grow up,of couse the thinking is different...

and become alot of thing need to face...

need to worry...

need to solve...

need to understand...

different moment we have different memory...

and we learn from mistake...

every people will change in every moment when grow up...

become more mature thinking...

become more brave...

become understanding...

become consideration...

but life always full of changing...

maybe a rich guy can change to poor guy in a year??

maybe ugly change to pretty??

maybe fierce change to goodness??

maybe naive change to mature??

we dont know what we will change...

that only GOD know...

but life is precious...

once the GOD gift you life...

then you should appreciate it...

no matter how hard,

dun ever to gift up your life...

life is not too much time for us,

so do what you want to do...

dont let urself feel regret...

let ur life become more

meaningfull and colourfull...

my result will realise on more bout 9 hours...

now im very scare and nervous...

can i pass my paper???

it decide my future...

i hope i can pass...

GOD,please bless me...

' Bye '

this word can say in many situation...

like when ur friend is leaving...

when hang up the phone...

or others...

tonight,my kai gor he will leave ipoh back to s'pora...

so fast...one week aready pass...

he come back one week for holiday..

bye gor...hope he will have a safety journey...

and take good care himself...

hmm...after secondary school,many friends they oso choose to work at s'pora...

after secondary school we also less time meet together...

sometime they come back 4-5 times in a year...

we not like last time so close when was secondary school...

sometime realy miss that time we was study..

we no need worry about many thing...

we always play together...

hang out together...

chit chat together...

go toilet together...

tuition together...

happy together...sad together...

bye,secondary life...we aready grow up...

many thing have to think...have to worry...

everyone oso work hard or study hard for their future....

everyone have their own life...

now everything become memory...

time always dont wait us...

after study at college...

i realize that people is reality...

and horror...

you will never know what they thinking and

chat they will do next step...

even the person close with you...

so..dont easy trust people...

learn to protect urself...

you will never know what will happen next min...

their are many change in our life...

so,ready the heart to accept challenge...

dont worry..be happy...everything will be ok...

'Heart'

once you gift it to the one u love...

izit easy to say,"i don't want it anymore"??

emm...this depend to how much u love the person....

100%?80%?50%?

or maybe less than that??

is that easy to fall in love with someone??

Love a person is that hard??

why in a relationship will appear so many problem??

'sorry'

can a sorry jao nothing happen???

the answer is cannot,becouse after say sorry....

but didn solve the problem,the problem is stil there...

it will make another problem appear again...

once you take a decision together with the person u love then u have responsibility

to take good care and protect him/her....

if you realy serious in the relationship,

please dont easy to gift up...

dont try to betry ur partner...

dont try to hurt him/her...

dont easy to say break up...

once u hurt a person...that a scar in the heart forever...

the person will always remember how u hurt him/her or

how bad u treat him/her before...

so dont try to easy say "i dont want ur heart anymore"...

appreciate the 'heart' that people gift to you...

what a lazy monday...kekeke...

i think many people also have a same thinking...

today wake up,i didn see any children again...

they move to another auntie house aready...

but they stil have thing leave at my house....

this moment i felt silent....

hahaha...today when to parade with my buddy (Karen)

we use about two hour walk the whole parade...

we didn see many people...we jz saw many worker....

haha...dont know why,i like to shopping with karen....

emm...maybe she will try clothes with me and gift me opinion...

we laugh at the fitting room....

we eat ice-cream together....

we eat fried fries together....

we chit chat about 8 po thing...

try clothes together...

felt comfortable shopping with her...

ahaha...

today is the first day my dear no need to work...

feel happy can see him on early time...

happy that he can spend his time to me...

happy that he was beside me...

feel safety when he was here....

thank you for always sayang me my dear...

thank you for always 'ti liang' me...

thank you for always 'qian jiu' me....

my heart there are a lot of thank you for becouse you are here....

even i didn tell out....

i hope you always beside me,then we will less argue...

i hope both of us will continue grow up together in every side...

the sky raining again....

today is sunday,bt few more min is tomorrow la...

this is a tired sunday...

i think i didn get enough sleep on last night,

becouse i have to share a bed wif a little girl...

haha...>.<

today after church,mummy,auntie,kuan mei,me n children

was shopping...not shopping centre,bt is boutique...

is quite enjoy it...but my leg is very tired..

because i wear high heel shoe...

i get two clothes on today...

is quite happy...but every time after i buy the clothes i will start thinking

about people comment...i scare i will regret buy that clothes....

keke...i always think too much..blek=p

tomorrow mummy will go KL for church meeting...

hope she will have a safety journey...

GOD bless...

Tonight is a rainy night....de sky keep raining....

this is my 1st blog that i post...keke....

i also dont know should write what...

but nw this moment...my mine keep repeat those word

jznw was chating at msn...our topic is 'boyfriend'

girl always chating around this topic with 'ji mui'

hahaha...as we know,every relationship was different...

build a relationship maybe for somepeople is easy n for

somepeople there are also hard...but need to found TWO people there

also love each other is not that easy...

when start a relationship,it mean u have a responsibility on it...

we need to spend time,love,care,energy to each other...

'Time'

once u have a gf/bf,u need to spend time to accompany each other..

to show that we love each other

'Love'

we need to use our true n full heart to treat each other...

to show that we love each other

'Care'

we need to care each other no matter what happen...

to show that we love each other

'Energy'

we need to spend our time n energy to find each other..

to show that we love each other

We do all thing also want to show that we love each other...

but why sometime they forgot liao why actualy they 2gether??

they forgot liao at the begining becoz of what reason they 2gether???

why a couple 2gether long liao jao start forgot many thing???

we start less care about each other...

we start less ask about each other thing...

we start less talk sweet words to each other...

why 2gether long liao got many 'less' come out???

this all question we also should think when argue...

haha...but i also dun know next time argue i can do it ornot...